Injured Humboldt Broncos player says he's going to live big 'for the guys who didn't make it'

A slogan on a T-shirt Kaleb Dahlgren got from the NHL's L.A. Kings sums up how he plans to recover from injuries he suffered inthe tragic Humboldt Broncos bus crashthat left 16 people dead: "Enjoy the Grind."

"That really spoke volumes to me because a lot of people can wake up in the morning and be negative: 'Work sucks. Why am I up so early?' Everyone's got their own things to complain about, but you just gotta enjoy the grind and be grateful you're here and thankful for all that you've got," Dahlgren, a 20-year-oldforward and assistant captain, saidfrom his home in Saskatoon.

"It can all change in an instant."

The collision between the Broncos bus and a semi-trailer took place April 6 around 5 p.m. on Highway 35, about 30 kilometres fromTisdale, in northeastern Saskatchewan.

The Broncos were travelling to Nipawin from the team'shometown of Humboldt for the Saskatchewan Junior Hockey League (SJHL) semifinal series against the Nipawin Hawks.

Woke up 4 days later

Dahlgren doesn't remember the crash that left 16 players and team staff members dead and 13 injured, including himself.

He had just changed into his suit and put on his headphones.

He woke up four days later, confused, with fractures and a puncture wound inhis skull, a brain injury, two broken vertebrae in his neck, three others that were fractured or cracked, and four broken vertebrae in his back.

Wondering if he'd been checked from behind. Wondering who won the game.

"With his type of brain injury, only three to five per cent of people recover from that," his father, Mark Dahlgren, told CBC News. "There was lots of neurological cognitive testing done, and they couldn't find any deficits, and so that in itself is miraculous."

Parents spent time at the scene

Dahlgren's parents, both nurses, spent time at the scene of the crash that day. They endured nearly five torturous hours of not knowing if he'd survived.

"We thought that nobody had made it. We didn't see any survivors. So we were just trying to come to terms with the fact that nobody survived," Mark Dahlgren said.

They had to telltheir son about the tragedy twice.

"We found out a few days after ... he didn't remember everything we told him and he wasn't sure how he got the injury," his father said.

"He had the same reaction,'Just wake me up, I'm dreaming,' And then he said, 'I need to live big, I need to live for the guys that didn't make it.'"

'I'm happy he's still here'

Within days, Kaleb Dahlgren had convinced the medical staff in charge of this rehabilitation to let him do some light workouts the familiarity and routine was a comfort.

Dahlgren shared a hospital room with some of his teammates and says that helped the healing process not just physicallybut mentally and emotionally as well.

The hardest part, so far, said Dahlgren, wasnot being able to attend any of the 16 funerals. He was too injured to leave the hospital.

KalebDahlgrenexplainswhat histeammates who died in the crash meant to him.

It's just crazy how some things can change in the blink of an eye'

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Dahlgren reflects on his love for his team and teammates.

His father said that, for him, the toughestpart has been grappling with the the fact thatpeople lost their sonsand his survived.

"And you know, there's the guilt that comes with that."

He said he's stopped asking "why"and "what if."

"It was the worst day of my life and the best day of my life all within four hours," he said."Every day, I tell Kaleb I'm happy he's still here, that I love him."

While it's not easy to see his son so severely injured, MarkDahlgrensays he has no anger toward the driver of the semi-trailer.

"I can't imagine what he's going through. And I wish we could support him, too, because he's a victim in all this, too. And, you know, accidents happen, and the chances of both those vehicles being in that intersection at the same time are astronomical.I just really feel for him and his family."

Physiotherapy 3 times a week

Dahlgren was discharged from hospital on Apr. 27.The top item on his to-do listwas to visit Humboldt.

He visited the Grade 5 students he volunteered with, a special friend in the care homeand some of the men with disabilities that he used to drive to and from the rink for every game.He was astounded by the memorials around town.

Dahlgrensays the outpouring of support has made a world of difference.

'It honestly makes it easier throughout this tough time'

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Humboldt crash survivor Kaleb Dahlgren thankful for the immense public support.

He saidit was hard to return to the rink, and to see the messages written on his teammates' stalls in the team's locker room.

Now, he's trying to settle into a routine. Three times a week, he gets physiotherapy and he's starting to work out, a look of determination and concentration on his face.

University plans deferred

A big part of his recovery involves rest, fresh air and "brain food" he's a regular at Thrive Juice Company, picking up a shopping bag full of Royal Flush, made of kale, spinach, celery, cucumber, apple, limeand ginger.

"It's enough greens for the whole day," he saidwith a grin, chugging the dark green liquid.

At nearly 21, this was Dahlgren's last season with the Broncos. Shortly before the crash, he was sorting through hockey scholarship offers at a handful of universities and looking forward to a bright future in either business or education.

Those plans are on hold now. Most of the universities have deferred their offers for a year so he can concentrate on healing and giving back to the community that means so much to him.

Dahlgren hopes he can still play a small role with the Broncos, perhaps as a scout.

'I want to be a difference maker'

Diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes at age four, he's an ambassador for the Juvenile Diabetes Research Foundation. He also created a project called Dahlgren's Diabeauties, which offers kids with Type 1 diabetes a little hockey limelight. At each home game throughout the Broncos' season, a childwith the condition gets to wear a special jersey for the game and participatein the puck drop.

"I want to be a difference maker and be a positive person about it, because I know up there [in heaven]that's what they'd want me to be," he said.

Dahlgrendescribes his extensive volunteer work in Humboldt.

'It's just such a relief to be able to help out and make people happy'

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Dahlgren talks about giving back to the community, being a volunteer.

Dahlgren pulledout a notebook with pages of handwritten names to whom he wantedto say thank you: to the first responders and medical staff;the companies that are supporting the Broncos and the families;the NHL and the hockey world;the music industry;and those around the world who sent messages of support and contributed to an online fundraising campaign.

"I've just been bombarded with all the love, and I'm really grateful for that," he said.

'I'll live the rest of my life for them'

Dahlgren knows there will be tough days ahead.

He doesn't know why he survived when others around him didn't. Buthe knows he'sbeen given a second chance at life.

"Maybe it wasn't my time to go. I think it's just the luck of the draw, though, because it wasn't anyone else's time to go," he said.

"I miss them. I love them verymuch. And I'll live the rest of my life for them."

Watch Kaleb Dahlgren's full interview with the CBC's Karen Pauls

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Watch Kaleb Dahlgren's full interview with the CBC's Karen Pauls