Vanessa Bryant is revealing the complex emotions she has been experiencing since the sudden and shocking deaths of her husband, NBA legend Kobe Bryant , and their 13-year-old daughter, Gianna Gigi Bryant.

On Monday, the grief-stricken mother and widow posted a heartbreaking message to Instagram in which she admitted she has been reluctant to write about her feelings, but wanted to do so to help others who may also be grieving the loss of a loved one.