Content warning: mentions of considering suicide.

I decided to medically transition as a non-binary person at the start of 2020. For me, this looks like weekly at-home low-dose testosterone shots syringes loaded with a fraction of a teaspoon that I inject into one of my thighs.

Over the last week, Ive looked at my half-empty vial with growing dread: Would I have enough to get me through however long the COVID-19 pandemic lasts? Or would the body changes I was looking forward to seeing get shelved indefinitely?