Britney Spears said she no longer believes in God because of the way her family has treated her.

The Toxic singer, who spent nearly 14 years under a conservatorship managed by her father that controlled almost every aspect of her life, spoke about losing her faith in a voice memo shared Monday on Instagram.

God would not allow that to happen to me if a God existed, she said, according to Page Six, which transcribed the audio before it was deleted. I dont believe in God anymore because of the way my children and my family have treated me. There is nothing to believe in anymore. Im an atheist, yall.

The voice note focused in large part on her teenage son, Jayden James, who recently spoke about their relationship in an interview with the Daily Mail .

Jayden turns 16 this month, and his older brother, Sean Preston, turns 17. Spears had the two boys with her ex-husband Kevin Federline, who was also interviewed and has main custody of the children.