Donald Glover says he didnt get his first big break in show business solely based on merit because Tina Fey told him he was a diversity hire.

The Atlanta creator and star who also raps under the name Childish Gambino reflected on his time on 30 Rock in a GQ profile published Tuesday. The Swarm creator told the magazine that he was still living in his NYU dorm when he got his first job writing for Feys NBC sitcom in 2006. Glover described himself at the time as struggling with some pretty heavy impostor syndrome.

It definitely didnt feel like I was supposed to be there, Glover told GQ. I used to have stress dreams every night where I was doing cartwheels on the top of a New York skyscraper with the other writers watching me.

Some of his anxiety may have been due to the knowledge that he was hired as part of a diversity initiative at NBC, in which adding a Black writer to your writers room didnt count against your budget, according to GQ. Glover said that Fey made him well aware of why he was hired.

There is no animosity between us or anything like that, but [Tina Fey] said it herself ... It was a diversity thing, Glover said. The last two people who were fighting for the job were me and [Black-ish creator] Kenya Barris.

Glover laughed, adding, I didnt know it was between me and him until later. He hit me one day and he was like, I hated you for years!