Ashley Morgan Smithline, a woman who says she used to be in a relationship with Marilyn Manson, is speaking out about the emotional and physical trauma she says she experienced at the hands of the shock rocker.

In an explosive People cover story published Wednesday, the 36-year-old accuses Manson of raping her, locking her in a bad girls room, cutting her and forcing her to partake in hard drugs and alcohol.

Smithline told People she met Manson in 2010 and that he lured me in with this endless intelligence. They soon moved in together, she says, and the abuse began shortly after. Smithline describes Manson whipping her as she lay naked and facedown on his bed, and says he lied to her about the time of day, blacking out the windows so shed lose track of time.

Smithline told People that Manson first raped her while she was sleeping, and that she woke up screaming with her arms tied.

He kept telling me, You cant rape someone that youre in love with, she said.