It turns out being married to a Saturday Night Live star isnt all its cracked up to be if you want to watch the show without a sense of panic, that is.

Scarlett Johansson , who is married to SNL head writer and actor Colin Jost , told Kelly Clarkson during her daytime talk show Wednesday that its hard for her to tune in to the show nowadays, given that she has such a personal connection to it.

I now rarely watch the show without having just a sense of not overwhelming panic, just like a slight underwhelming panic, the Black Widow actor told Clarkson to laughs from the singer and the audience.

Because I just feel like at any moment somethings going to fall apart, she added. And thats the excitement of SNL for all audiences, right? Is that its absolutely live.

But when youre emotionally invested in it and not just entertained by it, it takes on a little bit of a different life, Johansson explained.