For survivors of the deadly 2017 fires in Californias Sonoma County, the past few days with another major blaze growing in the county, leading to mass evacuations and power outages have felt like reliving a nightmare.

Mellissa Edney, who lost her home in Santa Rosa in the October 2017 fires , had just moved into her newly rebuilt house last week, with her husband and two daughters, ages 1 and 3. Then the Kincade fire hit. On Wednesday night, as the blaze burned near Geyserville, just a 30-minute drive north of her house, Edney could see the flames on the mountain ridge in the distance.

Theres no sleep. The stress and anxiety are overwhelming. The constant thoughts of what happened two years ago just keep coming up, Edney said. Her house still has power by miracle, as she put it, and shes decided to stay put even though theyre in a mandatory evacuation zone. Her husband, David, a deputy sheriff for the county, has been keeping her posted with the latest fire news. Shes packed and ready to go if he says the word.

I cant go through this again. I just cant, she said.

This month marked two years since the October 2017 fires, the deadliest in the state at the time, killed 44 people and burned 3,000 houses in Santa Rosa. The Tubbs fire leveled Edneys neighborhood of Coffey Park, turning block after block of houses into a field of ash .

As of Tuesday, the Kincade fire one of 10 major blazes across the state had grown to over 75,000 acres and was still only 15% contained, with more than 4,000 firefighters battling it. Its burned 124 buildings so far and spurred the evacuation of about 180,000 people from the area. More than 2,800 people stayed in Red Cross and other shelters across the state Monday night.

Pacific Gas & Electric also cut power to more than 2 million people in the region over the weekend in an attempt to prevent more fires as winds of over 100 mph blew through the area. On Tuesday, even as about 40% of those whod lost power still had not had it restored, PG&E launched another round of outages, which were expected to leave nearly 600,000 households in 29 counties over 1 million people without electricity by the end of the day.

Its been every bit as traumatizing as the first fire without the actual loss of our home, Edney said, noting shes also been obsessively checking for fire updates online. Ive been fighting off having a breakdown for several days now, reminding myself to stay strong for my girls.