Gisele Bndchen Says She Got Breast Implants And Instantly Regretted It

Reports first surfaced that Gisele Bündchen  had received a breast augmentation in 2015, but she said nothing at the time.

The supermodel finally confirmed the surgery and why she got it in a People  interview published Wednesday, connected to the release of her new book, Lessons: My Path to a Meaningful Life .

“I felt very vulnerable, because I can work out, I can eat healthy, but I can’t change the fact that both of my kids enjoyed the left boob more than the right,” she told the magazine. “All I wanted was for them to be even and for people to stop commenting on it.”

Bündchen said she experienced instant regret after undergoing the surgery. 

“When I woke up, I was like, ‘What have I done?’ I felt like I was living in a body I didn’t recognize,” the 38-year-old said. “For the first year I wore [baggy] clothes because I felt uncomfortable.”

With the support of her husband, New England Patriots quarterback Tom Brady, Bündchen said she was able to move past her feelings of regret. 

“He just said, ‘I love you no matter what,’ and that I looked beautiful,” she told People. “This was definitely another lesson: What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. But I wish I would have learned that a different way.”

In a People story published earlier on Wednesday, Bündchen opened up about another struggle in her life: a battle with panic attacks that began as her career was just taking off and she started dating Leonardo DiCaprio. The attacks got so bad, she said she contemplated suicide . 

Nowadays Bündchen mainly limits herself to doing magazine editorials and selective campaigns, as she retired from the runway in 2015.

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