LONG AFTER CHRISTMAS: EGYPTIANS BETWEEN A ROCK AND HARD PLACE.

The Coptic Cathedral in Cairo is considered a sacred place, not just by Christians but by many Muslims as well. Shock-waves went through the nation on Sunday, December 11, 2016, when a suicide bomber marched into the church adjacent to the cathedral, killing twenty-seven, mostly women, and wounding dozens. The Church of St. Paul and St. Peter, called the Boutrossiya by Egyptians, is often used for smaller gatherings instead of the cathedral and considered to be part of it.

The bomber had entered the church mid-service and marched towards the altar where the priest and deacons had just finished blessing the bread and wine for Holy Communion. The priest seemed to have been his target but the bomb went off earlier than planned as the bomber passed the womens section.

I happened to be in the south of Egypt at the time of the attack. I had joined an Egyptian group visiting Assiyut, where we saw ancient monasteries and pharaonic graves. Around 10 am, while we were admiring wall paintings inside a grave, the news of the bombing started to appear on cell phones. Muslims as well as Christians in our group fell silent as the news sunk in. Tweets expressing horror, disbelief, and deep sadness flew around the nation; with every tweet the number of casualties increased. According to next days news, the suicide bomber had been carrying twelve kilograms of TNT.

That Sunday, the Coptic pope, Tawadros II, was visiting Athens where the President phoned him immediately following the attack, announcing that there would be three days of mourning and an official state funeral for the victims. Government officials paid a visit to the wounded in the hospital and called upon the nation to join hands in fighting terrorists. And the government promised to restore the church before the Coptic Christmas on January sixth.

To the great chagrin of some radical-minded Muslim members of Parliament, the dead were declared martyrs; not just Coptic but national martyrs since their sacrifice had been for the country. According to the Coptic newspaper Watan i, Egypts heart was bleeding. After the bombing, Copts did not know whether to be angry (Was the security failure the fault of the government or the Church?) or just call for mercy. Thousands of Copts started to gather in front of the cathedral chanting battles cries such as Kyrie Eleison, Lord, have Mercy, and We will go on praying no matter what.

The Monday after, I watched the funeral on TV together with my host and several guests. First the church service with the coffins lined up before the altar. White banners with the names of the victims lined the walls. A woman who lost both of her daughters was kneeling in between their coffins, holding on to both. She had to be carried away to make way for the Pope. As he stood in distress facing the coffins, everybody around me started to cry. A Muslim friend posted on Facebook : My heart is bursting. Yes, I am referring to yesterdays events and the ugly truth of religious falsehoods [by extremist-minded Muslim leaders] we have to endure every day. In his sermon, Tawadros stressed that it was not just the Copts who felt pain and loss, but all of Egypt.

Later that day, during the official state funeral, the President announced that the suicide bomber had been twenty-two-year-old Mahmoud Shafiq Mohammed Moustafa, and stated that this blow caused us a lot of pain but it will never break us. Everybody feared what extremists, especially those connected to the Islamic State or Daesh would come up with next. Knowing that Daesh-connected terrorists like to attack when people are celebrating, many feared more incidents during the New Years or Christmas services. The fear was palpable in the days after the bombing. But no new attacks happened. Army engineers restored the Boutrossiya, and the Pope decided to use it for the New Years mass. After the service, he started the New Year by having breakfast with the families of the victims.

When the Boutrossiya was repaired, the wall and the columns remained untouched to show the marks of fire and bullets from the suicide belt. They remind Egyptians of their countrys precarious existence and vulnerability.

The Boutrossiya bomber had spent a year in jail without being officially charged. He had been tortured for being near, not in, an anti-government demonstration. According to political analysts, locking up young people with impunity gives birth to scores of angry radicalized young men since the prisons are fertile ground for Islamist recruiters. While churches and Coptic property used to be the targets of choice, now terrorists are diversifying their targets. For example they blow up planes October 2015, a Russian plane was shot down in Sinai killing 224, May 2016, Egypt Air flight 804 from Paris to Cairo broke up midway. January 9, 2017, extremists attacked a checkpoint in North Sinai, killing 10 policemen and wounding more than twenty. Many see such assaults as the result of Al-Sisis repressive politics. According to the Global Terrorism Index, the number of incidents and casualties is rising steadily; 2015 there were nearly 500.

All of Egypt is under threat. So far the governments attempts to maintain calm and security by using brutal and dubious methods have not worked. Copts feel frustrated; there is little they can do but rely on their faith, their dedication to Egypt, and the Presidents efforts to include them in the nation. In his Christmas message , Pope Tawadros repeated the same advice he had given during the funeral service: look up to the heavens from where come light and peace and you can become peacemakers. Only looking to earth makes people pursue violence, war, conflicts, and terror.