The Mental Workload Of A Mother

By Jami Ingledue

My husband and I thought we had this whole equal marriage thing figured out. We are a modern couple, after all. He is perfectly capable of cooking and cleaning. I know how to use a drill and do yard work. There were times I worked full time and he took care of the house, and there were times when he worked more and I picked up more of the load. Equality. An egalitarian partnership. Occasionally we had to work some things out, but overall: no problem.

And then we had kids.

Its impossible to describe just how much the workload increases when kids come along. But one of the most difficult things about the work of parenting is that so much of it is invisible.

So one parentlets be honest, usually the dadcan think they are doing the same amount of work as the other. But sometimes they can just be completely unaware of all of the many things that the other parentusually the momis completely taking care of.

Often the most tiring aspect of this work is being the Knower of All the Things. So often the mom is the one who holds all of the behind-the-scenes knowledge about all of the many things involved in raising a kid. The one who plans, who notices, who anticipates, who researches, who worries. This is often referred to as the mental load.

The mental load is not just one job though: it is pervasive. It applies to nearly all aspects of raising kids and managing a household. EVERYTHING.

Why is it so often the mom who carries the mental load? Maybe we tend to be naturally better at these kinds of things, but dads are perfectly capable of carrying that mental load in their jobs and hobbies. So why cant they more often also carry some of the mental load at home?

Surely this is mostly about our socialization. They dont because they dont have to. Because someone else has always done it for them, and it might be completely invisible to them.

So, as a service to fellow moms everywhere, let me spell it out for you, dads. (Youre welcome.)

Stuff. Just this week my husband said, we need to go through all of these toys and get rid of the junk and loose parts. Guess what? I already do that every couple of months, apparently completely unnoticed.

There is so much crap everywhere, all the time. We are in a constant war to try to get SOME of it out of the house before the next Christmas when they will get dozens of toys with ten thousand tiny, sharp-edged parts. Mountains of toys, but also things like sippy cups, broken umbrellas, sports equipment, books, school and art supplies, etc ad infinitum. Anticipating what we will need, deciding what toys are developmentally appropriate, where to take things were getting rid of or recycling, noticing what our kid is into now or will be into in the future.

And then there are the clothes. Oh my god, the hours of my life I have spent sorting through clothes. Mountains of received hand-me-downs, mountains of outgrown clothing. Do they have the right size, the right season? Do they have the next sizes available for when they grow out of the current one? Will they ever in a million years actually wear this? Lets place bets on what shoe size theyll be in when school starts, because who the hell knows.

Gifts. Attending a birthday party? We cant just show up. We have to buy a gift. We have to think about the age-appropriateness of the gift, what the kid is into, if theres anything the parents might object to. And of course there are the gifts for our own families. All of the Christmas gifts, plus extended family. Picking up things on sale throughout the year that you think theyll like, finding the best deals. Sometimes moms even take care of their own Mothers Day gifts.

And lets not forget things like end-of-year teacher gifts. My husband did not even know this was a thing that existed in the world.

Keeping Connected. Keeping in touch with family: remembering birthdays, posting pictures for grandma on Facebook , planning family gatherings and visits, getting kids to write letters and make homemade birthday cards for grandpa, making sure they get to spend quality time with their cousins. Organizing playdates with friends, knowing who they are hanging out with, who they are having conflicts with, who is a good influence and who is not. Knowing who their parents are and if its a safe place to sleepover.

School. Oh, the never-ending paperwork of school: So many school forms. Reading records. Permission slips. Emergency contact forms. Multi-page forms for every activity. And then theres overseeing homework, knowing what they are struggling with, knowing when to contact the teacher, making sure they put the homework BACK IN THE BACKPACK FOR THE LOVE OF ALL THAT IS HOLY, preparing for class parties and holidays, choosing school supplies, packing lunches or sending lunch money, bus schedules, Mom-I-forgot-I-need-cupcakes-TOMORROW, communicated at 9 p.m.

Calendar. Managing the family calendar, anticipating schedules for each season, noticing conflicts: this takes up a huge amount of brain space. Just a sampling of the things we have to consider: school schedule (especially weird days off that sneak up on us), bus schedules, concerts, recitals, lessons, class parties, field trips, work travel, childcare, doctor appointments (if there are any chronic health needs in the family this becomes a part-time job in itself), dentist appointments, school meetings, teacher conferences, haircuts, sleepovers, birthday parties, summer camps, and all of the things that everybody forgets to tell you about.

Meal Planning. Planning and shopping to a budget, but also noticing what staples are running low, knowing what everyone will actually eat at any given time, knowing when someone must be having a growth spurt because they are eating enough to feed a small army, balancing health concerns with treats and favorites.

And finally, looking after the Emotional Needs of the family. We think about what is going on in everyones emotional world. Who needs some extra support and hugs, who needs to talk, who needs some space and freedom to figure things out on their own? Who is not feeling well and needs cuddles? How can we help them manage their anger better, channel their anxiety, learn empathy for others, treat people kindly, be less bossy? The world sorely needs men who do a better job of noticing how other people feel. Dads, this starts with you.

Tired yet? This is only the tip of the iceberg. And it doesnt even cover crises and catastrophes. The list is endless and could fill a whole book.

Which I do not have the brain space to write.

Previously published as The Invisible Work of Motherhood in The Wild Word magazine. www.thewildword.com

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